"Hello darkness my old friend."
Not a fan of the song but it's a lyric I wish I had written. It hits home and sums things up neatly and concisely. This place I find myself has never been more uncertain. There is nowhere to turn. Nothing has helped. Nothing works. I have no idea what to do and no more energy to search any further. Complete limbo. It sounds extreme but it's as if all options have been exhausted. Sleep apnea is pummeling me. Sadness and hopelessness rule the day. I wear my poker face as best I can, fooling no one. I have no choice but to plow through for the sake of my family. I don't know how I do it from moment to moment. Numbness may be the key.