It's been a terribly long time since I posted last. I think of this blog often and wonder how I can keep it going when there's nothing to report, nothing to share.
There are no more doctors or therapies. No more clinical trials or experiments. I've really abandoned any hope that there is any way to correct this. I do take one antidepressant that helps to numb the pain.
I believe this is just who and what I am. It's the fiber I'm made of.
Some people are naturally content with life. Others can never find a shred of piece of mind. I am the latter and it's my destiny. My only choice now is one of acceptance. Maybe I can conserve energy by giving up the fight. Maybe that will make each day less exhausting. It doesn't even seem like a choice anymore. It's the only option.